Every time that i open my eyes, I realize that i was better off keeping them closed. As the dream that i call my past, and nightmare that is reality have long since caught up to me.
And i realize that the harder i try, the harder it gets.
And i realize the more that i try to talk the less anyone listens.
But slowly, ever so slowly my life seems to take a turn for the better. Spinning like a gyroscope, and as it gets better i realize that im still spinning.
That any moment ill bypass my goal and have to wait untill the chance comes again, and again, and again.
Waiting for a phone call that never happens.
Looking for that closure that dosent exist.
And if i collected all of my memories into one moment.
One life experience, i would have a spectacular life.
Compared to others that are less fourtunate.
And yet at the same time id much prefer giving them my beat up sneakers, and walk barefoot in their shoes.
As you only live once and only get one chance, and every memory you have is yours alone even those shared with friends.
If the person you ignore today was to die tomarrow..
how would you feel?
But you dont think like that right, your life is just so busy to tell someone hi.
To ask someone how their day is going, even if you dont care, Even if you hate them, even if they hurt you, even if you hurt them and are too afraid to admit you were wrong. Im almost certain than noone that this is about will realize it. Or even stop to take a chance and read it. I have nothing els to say, but thank you everyone whos helpd me to realize who i am. And thank you again, to eveyone whos ever hurt me. And apologies to anyone iv ever hurt. Have a nice life and bye.