do you know where the sand in an hour glass comes from? Or why most of your dreams are continuation of dreams that you either have had and don't remember or simply have not had yet.have you ever broken someones heart not once but twice, or more. and didn't bat an eyelash? any such manner of various thoughts as you lie awake in bed ,or in your somber solace whether it be on the road on your way to work,or in the shower in the morning,, mabye even during the news, or while you text/call the one person you love.
A Tasty Soliloquy,
"Have you ever had the dream where you were falling? Its theorized that when you dream that you are falling it is because things are out of your control and your subconscious cant handle the pressure. Lets take a look at where dreams, and any manner of things all go to die. "
The air rushes past my face at a dizzying pace as i blink my eyes frantically trying to soak up as many details as i possibly can. "where am i?" my mind frantically screaming as my limbs flail the wind ripping at the edges of my pants and collar and sleeves of my shirt. Breathing in woke me up to the bizarre reality of the situation. I'M FALLING! Arms desperately trying to catch hold of something, anything to slow my fall. The fall seemed forever the wind whipping at my ears the pressure pulling at my insides pushing my eyes. At this point the fear in my heart is heavy not even the adrenaline can match the speed that my mind is racing. "where am i, what is going on why a i falling" all blurs as if i had just fallen past the very thoughts.
But, there was one thought and it stayed with me despite the rapid descent. "I CANNOT DIE NOW. years of liars and cheaters, years of hopelessness years of solitude, and i have finally found someone who wants to spend their life with me. someone who actually wishes to try, someone who will not cheat or just vanish without another word. someone who lies next to me as i sleep, someone who's smile id give anything to protect. Our time to me is more precious than gold, and her every feature down to her soul makes me feel lucky to have been alive. I. Cannot. Die. Now."
My eyes finally adjust to the dark miasma, just in time for me to notice it. The murky darkness giving away to a dark shadowy hole, a vast dark shadow that seems to grow the longer i stare at it. Untill the hole no longer looks like a hole, the darkness of the abyss seems to bleed into the soulless black pit. As i realize with a shiver down my very spine that, its not a hole at tall its the bottom! i scream trying to blink away the tears as the wind sucks the noise straight out of my mouth and i choke on the rushing air coughing fanatically as spit fly's deep into my windpipe. The darkness of the bottom inching closer and closer as i gasp and cough trying to close my eyes but too paralyzed with fear to let my eyes close any more than the wind is pushing them.
i writhed in the air coughing and crying as the wind ripped at my clothing, I found myself praying for the one that i love dearly, and not for my own safety. I was desperately hoping that by some miracle That I made it out of this alive and as the ground only came closer I realized that it was much to real to be a dream. I could almost feel how close I was to everything being over. I didn't even have enough time to think back over my life but every last event was now going to be etched away, my every memory soon to be a smear of grey matter on this dark ground. its gotten so close that I can feel it now, I can feel the impact before it has even happened. I cant even bear the thought of closing my eyes now that i have already committed to keeping them open.
The final seconds of my fall were the worse, I could feel an icy chill pour down every inch of my back and through every vein. my eyes met with the darkness and the last thing i remember feeling was a mind numbing pain, and hearing a sickening snap and crunch as everything fades to black.